However strong I wish to appear to everybody around me (for some reason...), I feel that I cannot keep it up. I am NOT doing fine. I am not eternally happy. I crack up at the smallest things and wonder what the heck is going on around me. I wish I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it somehow is not appearing. I am static, however much I'd love to be capable of moving on swiftly.
This is going to take time.
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mlj... pick up the pieces and move on! i know it's easily said than done...
Sometimes I feel life would be easier if I just knew 'why?'
Trouble is no matter how hard I ponder it, the why never seems answerable. I can put all my strength into it, all my force of character and all I end up with is an uncertainty that belies my good fortune.
When my dear friend Føns drowned, I fell to pieces gladly. When I say galdly, it wasn't that I didn't feel the pain, I did, I still do, but rather I felt that finally, I finally had a valid reason to let go and break down. It was a catharsis of my emotional state.
If you want it, and I assume you've posted your feelings for a purpose, then my advice is not to fight these emotions, but rather to let them flow. They're there for a reason after all. You will survive this and no one will think you any the less strong.
thanks moif, for understanding. i do miss talking to you.
it's just been a really rough period and i'm struggling to come to terms with so many things at the same time. i think i'm just willing everything to get "fixed" straight away, which is ridiculous. but with my head such a mess, i vascillate between "i want this to go away so i don't have to think about it" and "i'm going to dive into all these feelings and issues and really solve them"... i get confused.
Getting confused is part of the deal i reckon.
And moif is right, let the emotions flow and no one will think you any the less strong.
=)
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